Even though my assigned gender is female i think sometimes i might be a bit sexist?

Like i was lucky enough to grow up in such a privileged way that i’ve barely experienced sexism, and i don’t notice when it happens to me or to others.

Like i don’t have that kind of instinctual understanding of women’s issues that most people do. I remember when i was younger my father told me that if someone tries to hurt me i should kick them in the balls and run. And i ask him “what if it’s a woman”. I guess i never lived with that kind of fear.

I should work on that because just because i don’t take sexist comments to heart, it’s a very serious issue that makes many people feel rightfully scared to death, and men still kill women just because they cheated and think it’s normal. so what the fuck, what on earth has brought me to distance myself so much from a social issue that clearly concerns me?

There are often some relatively, weird, creepy or slightly repulsive people that try to hit on me like on train rides, and i humor them because i am so bored and starved for human interaction with no strings attached.

I’ve had:

chinese guy who showed me how crazy it is that you can just google porn in europe,

Girl form congo whose austrian boyfriend’s grandmother admitted to her to doing acts of terrorism in south tyrol during the seventies (she was actually very cool i was just shocked cause my family was kinda on the receiving end of the terrorist attacks),

guy who tried to convince me to buy into his pyramid scheme for edible toothpaste pills,

very dumb american soldier, fan of andrew tate and proud of his german heritage, who i accidentally brought to the conclusion that capitalism might not always be the best thing (he caught himself, and said: wait, don’t get me wrong, i love capitalism),

literal austian neo-nazi 1 (more sexist),

literal austrian neo-nazi 2 (more xenophobic),

a turkish guy who tried to convince me to drop out of school and make money off air bnb like he did, (“i’m self made” entrepreneur attitude) when i pointed out that i need an apartment to do that, he just ignored me,

South tyrolean guy who tried to set me up with his son,

German guy who used to work for renowned german food production industry giant, trying to set me up with one of his two sons, telling me how many houses they got in munich and that one of them has a phd in physics. hes wife is an architect tho and her work seemed really cool tho

the funniest thing is that these people don’t know i’m a lesbian